Boo

Well kids, we have our answer.  And it's a no.  So on to month four.  I think I was too freaked out this past month, trying too hard.  So this month, no baby talk, no freaking out, no monitoring every little thing.  It will be difficult, because my natural inclination is to talk about everything (just be glad you don't work with me...poor Gina has to put up with my blabber all day).  So, I'll be back in a month, hopefully with good news.

The wait continues...

I'm three days late, but the test was negative.  I'm like clockwork, so late is weird.  All the websites say that's no big deal, you might not have a positive test for a week after a missed period, but this waiting is draining.  Am I?  Chris has been texting me about every 15 minutes for status updates.  He's so excited.  He told me he feels like he's filled with joy.  For that fact alone, I hope there is a baby there.  I'd hate to take that joy away.  I'm trying to seem indifferent, because I don't want to be disappointed, but that little bubble of hope is there.  Three days late!!  We've decided that if there is no arrival by Friday, we'll take another test.  Fingers crossed!!

Is it this month?

In a few short days, we will know if this month is the month.  I'm nervous, because what if it's not.  I'm excited, because what if it is.  And I'm totally scared because what if it is AND what if it isn't??  I so want to take a pregnancy test now, but I know it's too soon and it will probably just say no, but what if it doesn't??  There's a chance I could know a whole 4 days sooner!!  But I'll wait because pregnancy tests are expensive and I need to stop wasting them :)